I want to take the time and apologize to my faithful readers who come here for their daily dose of fashion, my input and other things. I have been in a very bad place emotionally this whole week. I guess most of it revolves around all of the physical pain I have been in since the trip to the emergency room and with my doctors appointment still some time away it has me VERY depressed. The pain killers make me groggy, I am only one assignment behind in the draping class but as with all of my classes right now what I fear is I have temporarily lost my ambition. That has NEVER happened before. I am always so dedicated, so driven to succeed. Not just succeed but to do it the very best I can which has meant all A's and B's for me.
Of course the pain causes me not to sleep well and most night I am sleeping in the lazy boy because to lay flat in bed is excruciating beyond belief. But at the very least in the lazy boy I am not tossing and turning. The depression right now is so bad it is hard to focus, stay motivated and just to get through what has been the shittiest 2 weeks of my life.
I feel so afraid they will not find what is wrong, or won't try to and just want to medicate me out of my mind. Which in the frame of mind I am in right now is not such a bad thing. I am sure I will snap out of it sooner or later but for now I feel VERY alone, very afraid and very over the whole fucking mess. I guess I am asking for you to keep me in your thoughts as I go through this and if you want drop me a line. Hell at this point a surprise from my Amazon Wish list would even be nice even though I have a stack of like 20 books at the side of my bed as it is.
Charlie!!! This makes me sad! Chin up. If you need to get together and do something FUN just drop me a line.
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Stacey Kay
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