A Pre-Daddies day wish

Gay, straight, married, divorced or single and even step-fathers--Happy Father's day to all the men lucky enough to have children in their lives.



My Father

We were never really close when I was growing up.

You were always working andwhen you weren't

there was never anytime for me.

We never really had anything in common like most father's and sons.

I made an effort a few times and it never made a difference.

I grew to resent you not wanting to be

part of my overall life.

I never heard you say--- till I was 38--- that you loved me.

I never felt you hug me---- till I was 38.

Telling you I was gay was one of the hardest

things I ever had to do, but I knew I had too.

Telling you I had AIDS was even worse.

But when I did I expected we would only have

2 years left together--we have had so much more than that.

Hearing you tell me you had cancer was something

I never expected.

It changed everything over night,

it changed very little in the long run.

I respect that man that you tried to be,

the home, the food and the things I needed

growing up

But I needed you more as

my dad--my friend

than as my father.

I'll always love you

and have never been able to say it to you.

I needed to say these things to you this year,

even if it is in this space, and in a place

that you will never see it but I

feel better now having said it.

Happy Father's Day---- Dad