The end of another month

It is so hard to believe February's last day is tomorrow, where has the time gone?  It flew by so fast and yet all of you have been faithful readers have been there every step of the way reading about my life, my thoughts and feelings.  There are times where words fail, things are to painful to talk about, where I would be totally exposed, raw beyond words and I am not so sure thats why all of you come here.

I try to keep it encouraging, upbeat and most of all I try my best to keep it real.  The struggle for me this month has been my lack of self confidence more than normal and my trying to get over it as they say.  It has been painful, all to real and in many ways probably holds me back.

I am tired of it, I no longer want to be in my own way.  I want all of the possibilities for me to happen, all the doors to open and to be the best possible me I can be.  Go where I need to go, be who I need to be and  do what I need to do.  The sky I am finding out is the limit.  The last week has been the hardest because I want the summer semester to be here already.  Summer semester for me means Studio Fashion classes and I don't want to wait any longer to be in them.

I know G-d is going to provide the 5 students besides my self we need for the class to happen and I know I am going to do the best I can when I get there, it is "just the getting there" as they say.  Right now over all I know i Have a good solid B in my classes and that is where I will find my confidence.  As of today I am going to claim it outright!  It is past time I do.  Until next time, I am so glad we had this time together.