Another book review and the loss of hope

Well I want to start with another book review for those of you who read this site for the Wizard of Oz and Judy Collectible things I find.

I have almost finished (With like 20 pages left to read) "The Other Side of the Rainbow with Judy Garland on the Dawn Patrol" by Mel Torme. Published by Morrow and Company, Inc. in New York 1970. This book primarily deals with the period of time Judy was shooting "The Judy Garland Show" for CBS. The book also goes into some details of Mel's private life at the time as well.

The title has to do with the early morning phone calls Judy would make to some of the staff concerning her worries about the show, her talent, her abilities and how she was being perceived on the show. The majority of the phone calls where like 2 to 4 a.m. and grew into the nickname "The Dawn Patrol" for those that got the phonecalls, soothed Judy's nerves and made the show go on.

I want to say some of what others have said about the book:

"Mel had the guts to relive the story our hearts were too full to recall"--Mickey Rooney

"A Vivid and highly sophisicated glimpse of the unfathambale Judy- the driven, the talented, the tormentor, and the tormented". Gerald Frank

"Versatility, of itself, is an oversized attribute. The important question is not: how many things can a man do, but how many things can he do well.....In this abosrbing account he reveals what his friends for saome time that he is handy at the typewriter as he is at the piano. The Other Side of the Rainbow is half autobiography and half biography.... the book is of unusual in that it accurately reveals the inner workings of a network television program".---- Steve Allen

I would recommend this book very much and Mel does a wonderful job telling what happened and only really speaking of Judy as he knew here, when he knew her and no more.

Now unto some personal thoughts--I want to talk a little about some of what was said at the doctor's visit at the Clinic. I have been giving it some very serious thought today and especially his comment about my "Having lost all hope". I am going to be painfully honest here and say that, that statement was very true. When it exactly happened I am not sure but I am beginning to understand the why it happened in the first place.

As many of you know I have been in the last 2 years or so very dramatcially ill to the point it felt like the bottom fell out literally. The bodily pain I have been in at times is very unbearable but somehow I keep trudging along. But in all reality I think I just gave up, didn't think anyone gave a good goddamn about what was happening and if they did nobody said anything directly to be so I wouldn't be ""overburdened". I felt so very alone and I personally not worth the fight, to fight back.

I just got to the point I feel I just didn't care anymore and there was no hope. You do stupid things when you get to that point and that stupidity can be very painful emotionally, spiritually and more than likely physically as well. Seeing that pain, that stupidity and loss of hope is even more painful, the whole "how could I have ever gotten so low". There were times people would come along and slap me upside my heada nd say "What the #%$& are you thinking" and one went so far to say "Snap out of it Mary". to those people who know who they are I thank you.

I know now that I really felt my time was at the end and now for the first time I know I am only in the middle of it. For that I am grateful.

Lobby Card

Every now and then you run across something you never thought you would. Then you hope the price is right and when it turns out to be a steal you smile, pay the nice sales clerk and run like hell. This is the case with this Original Lobby Card, I found this at the Riverfront Antique Mall a little over a month ago now and when the clerk said it was $9.00 I bought and ran like hell.

It is my first "english" Original Lobby card I have others but they are in Spanish/Mexican so this was and is a rare find in my collection. Of course the photograph contains our beloved Judy as Betsy Booth--the biggest reason I bought it actually and Lewis Stone as Judge Hardy.

Musical Program
Judy recorded four songs for the film, none of which were used in the final print. The only remaining song is one verse of Happy Birthday to You, which Judy sings a cappella. The songs were apparently cut just prior to release, since some of the early ad copy still contains the line "Mickey woos! Judy sings!". The songs which were deleted are America (My Country 'Tis of Thee) (which was to open the movie), Easy to Love (sung to Andy to the accompaniment of his car radio as they approach New York), Abide with Me and The Rosary (during the funeral service for Jimmy Frobisher). This photograph of this poster is not in my collection but was found on the internet, hopefully i can find it even if it is a reprint

Notes
This was the only episode of the Andy Hardy Series in which a guest star (Judy) was billed above some of the regular cast members.
There is a sharp contrast between the Betsy Booth of Life Begins and the Betsy Booth of the previous Andy Hardy installments. Judy had clearly outgrown the role, and Betsy (whether it was the director's intention or not) is considerably more sophisticated and worldly in this episode.
This was Judy's third and final appearance as Betsy Booth in the Andy Hardy series.

She appeared previously in Love Finds Andy Hardy (1938) and Andy Hardy Meets Debutante (1940). Though MGM resisted Judy's growing up, she insisted on playing adult roles. She was concerned that continuing on with the role of Betsy would hold back her career. Her feelings in the matter were probably expressed in this poem she wrote:
I sing to Mr. Gable,But he's never really there.I'm longing to enchant himwith sophisticated flair.But ev'ry time I turn around,Andy Hardy's in my hair! (This photgrpah of the VHS cover is also not in my collection but I am now on the Hunt for it)

The film was rated "unobjectionable for adults" by the National Legion of Decency, implying that it was not suitable for children. The discussion Judge Hardy has with Andy concerning fidelity, and the interrupted "love" scene in Jennitt Hicks' apartment were probably the objectionable scenes.

The prerecordings of Judy's four songs which were cut from the film are included in the audio program on the laserdisk set: Judy Garland/The Golden Years at M-G-M (MGM/UA ML104869).

Another Munchkin has died

Very sad news this morning actor and munchkin Mickey Carroll has died in St. Louis, Missouri at the age of 89.

By Mike Owens

KSDK -- St. Louis' most famous munchkin, Mickey Carroll, died at his Crestwood home Thursday morning. He was 89-years-old.

Carroll was his stage name: his real moniker, Michael Finocchiaro. He grew up in St. Louis and made it to Hollywood to play in the role that defined his life. He spent a lot of time on charitable work, and would talk to anyone, at any time, about his part in the "Wizard of Oz."

But there's an odd twist to this story about Mickey Carroll. About the same time he died, a lawyer was filing suit in his behalf, asking for an accounting of his finances, and raising concerns that his caretaker Linda Dodge had improperly taken control of his finances and his personal affairs.

Dodge said Carroll moved in with she and her husband in December as his health deteriorated. Carroll's nephew, Frank Parenti, also moved in.

Dodge has become caretaker not only of Carroll's health, but his memory too, pushing for him to be included in various Walks of Fame, and having him promoted at various events celebrating the "Wizard of Oz" movie. She said he played three roles in the film: as a soldier, a fiddler and town crier.

But attorney Patrick McCarthy said Carroll's family believes he was also being played the fool and had signed paperwork giving Dodge control of his life.

McCarthy said the state department in charge of adult affairs is investigating the case and a probate judge has called for a hearing next week to hear the allegations.

Among them are that Carroll signed a power of attorney when he was in fact mentally incapable of doing so.

In addition, McCarthy said there needs to be an accounting of Carroll's finances and he wonders why Dodge kept Carroll from talking to his family members. McCarthy says Dodge changed phone numbers several times, and when Carroll's family got the new number, she would change it again.

Dodge denies wrongdoing and said the suit is just a family spat over money, as much as a million dollars.

Visitation will be next Tuesday at Kutis Funeral Home on Gravois near Grant's Farm, with a Catholic mass on Wednesday at the St. Louis Cathedral. Prior to the funeral, there will be a court hearing.

Of the 125 Munchkins who starred in the Wizard of Oz, only seven are still alive. Most recently, actor Clarence Swensen, who played one of the Munchkin soldiers, passed away in late February at the age of 91.

Paper: "The End of a Legend"

This morning I want to talk a little bit about the very end of Judy's life. The end of a legend, and the silencing of the greatest entertainer of all time. Many know by now Judy died from an accidental drug overdose in London on June 22, 1969 now almost 40 years ago. That year I was 20 months old (and not quite 2 years old) and there are many, many times I wish I was older to have been able to remember that painful time of her death and of course the Stonewall Riots shortly after that.

I think personally that for at least those of who were gay then it was a VERY different time and place and I am sure many of us felt like we had lost the one soul who understood us and loved us unconditionally. Many say the Stonewall were in part because of Judy dying.

I want to mention I have had dreams of walking into Campbell's with the young Joe Luft's hand in mine and him saying "I want you to see Momma". I woke up shaking crying and in a cold sweat that night. It may sound morose but in all reality if I can get back into New York City I would love to see if Campbell's Funeral Home would at the very least let me walk into the room Judy was laid in just to try to be that close to her in those final moments.

The other thing I would love to do is to go upper Manhattan I believe and visit Ferncliff Cemetery and visit where Judy is buried, leave Yellow Roses--her favorites, or so I have read-- and let her know how much she is still loved and missed. Well gang until tomorrow...

TV Guides

Ok I don't want people thinkingI hated "Young Judy" I didn't actually. The information about her early career before the Wizard of Oz is staggering and gave much more insight than some of the stuff I have read in little over 2 years since I really started collecting. But I will stand by the fact for me that "It is a little hard to swallow that according to the authors all of Judy's problems hinged on the lies told her about her father's homosexuality".

I know this book was written shortly after Stonewall, and things were not what they are now in regards to being gay, so I know you should keep a perspective on it. I know a few gay people/couples with children and their children are well balanced, loving, caring people. Enough said about all of that....

One of my finds at the Cadiz, Ohio "Gone With the Wind Festival" featuring 3 of the munchkins was the aforementioned book and two TV Guides from July 1-7 2000. At first the woman wasn't going to sell them as she was really there selling home decor, the kind you find at those "home shows" some of us have. "I really only brought them for table decoration and never thought anybody would want to buy them. I actually got them at a garage sale and hvae no idea what they are worth."

Well somebody did and thanks to Deb Dwyer from the "Everything Oz" Yahoo Group I got them and for a song and a dance as well. Deb you are the greatest and I am a huge fan of yours. $5.00 a piece--KACHING! These are the first TV Guides in my collection and now I have to look for the other two. There are some nice articles in the it both of the TV Guides are the same except the covers. If you have extra's laying around or find some send them my way (smile).

Well gang until tomorrow and further down the Yellow Brick Road.

New Book

Well gang I want to mention a new book I got from a good freind of mine Lisa in New Jersey (girl you know I love you). I have almost finished reading it and so I wanted to take the time to put in my critique.....

The book is "Young Judy" by David Dahl and Barry Kehoe printed in 1975 by Mason and Charter. This book unlike others focuses only on the early Judy/Frances with some interjections of her later life but not many and while the later life is mentioned it is to focus on the problems that were created early in Judy's life.

This book unlike others does not blame Judy's mother for Judy's problems like so many other books out on the market. This one for the most part lays the majority of Judy's problems on Judy's father Frank. Judy her entire life had NOTHING negative to say about her father and this book makes up for it big time.

The mojority of Judy's problems according to this book were because of the fact that Frank was GAY or at the very least BISEXUAL and everyone around Judy lied about the fact. While many of the other books mention Frank being gay this book is a hard sell because they feel that everything wrong was Frank's fault because of his sexuality and his not standing up to his wife Ethel. With a huge part of Judy's fan base being gay this book was hard to swallow and the book even goes on to saying she hung with the gay crowd to extremes in the end of her life. Oh well, guess this is their opinion and it is a shame.

Ethel is partially to be blamed as well in the book but not made into the monster so many other books state she is based on Judy's statements about her mother later in life.

There are some great photographs in this book many of whichI have never seen before. I would (believe it it or not) Recommend this book for your collection if you can get it for a buy, maybe Amazon.com other than that for some this book may not be the best but for me it certainly wasn't the worst I have read on Judy.

Oz tins and other stuff

Well its bright and early and I thought I would get in my blogging before the day completely runs away. We are off to Cadiz, Ohio today for the Clark Gable Home Museum is having their yearly Festival and I think this years theme is "Gone With the Wind With the Munchkins".. Maragaret Pellgrinin, Jerry Maren and Karl Slover are all to be there as well as the little girl who was "Little Bonnie Blue Butler" now 70 years ago. Besides I need an Oz Festival fix .


It will be so nice seing the part of the munchkins again and to be honest they are part of the only things left from the original movie and with them in their 80's to 90's they are jsut cherished and loved treasures and I would love to spend as much time as I can afford with them as possible. Like all of us their time is limited before they too go over the rainbow.

Cadiz is only an hour away and not to terribly far from teh Ohio River, so it should be a fun day and hopefully some rather nice Oz finds will be there. Some of the members from the Yahoo Group "Everything Oz" will be there and it will be so nice seeing them again--since the last time was Chesterton and they are just the best people on the planet but I am biased as I am one of them .

Things have been rather busy the last few days, which I am not complaining about but I do realize I need to get more organized to try to get more accomplished within the day. Mainly in regards to my artwork and writing that I have been trying to do. I also would like to try to get back to making my one of a kind dolls i was doing there for a while and this time around I am only doing Oz dolls that are not related to the doll work I do for customers with the shop.

This is one of the conclusions I have come to about what am I going to do with 20 more years and this my friends is part of the answer. Oz dolls and art work, continue my collecting which I JUST ADORE and one other thing I would rather not mention just yet as it is still just a "very crazy idea "but one I hope can and will happen.

The Oz tins pictured here we found at the Holmes County Flea Market and are some of the newest things in my EVER growing collection of Oz and Judy Garland Memorabilia. I know it seems like to some that is all I talk about, think about, eat about and well poop about and it is more than likely the case but it just can not be helped the more I find my self doing with it the more I want to do. It stays so fresh and new and wonderful and I think part of the thrill is the hunt and what will be added next and over the next few days I think what I have gotten is some very neat things.

So stayed tuned and until then.........

I Believe everyone deserves a chance to Fly

Well as many of you know that read this blog yesterday was my Cleveland Clinic appointment and even though he was 40 minutes late--which I hate--the appointment could not have gone any better.

Of course all of the typical first visit questions but some things I have neverever been asked about and frankly I thought no one cared what I thought. "What or how do you preceive having AIDS"? "What do you believe AIDS is doing to you"? "How do you feel when you have to take your pills"? "How do you feel having survived this long"? I was just besides myself, and he came across as he was lingering on my every word and was actually very interested in what I said and how it was said.

There was a misprint in his notes saying i had this only 16 years and not the 18 I will have on July 16 but what blew me aware and how the title of this post came to be is what he said next.

If your familiar with "Wicked" you will know there is a song that the Wizard sings called "Sentimental Man" with the line "I believe everyone deserves a chance to fly"..... well my you can fly moment came when this Doctor said my goal today after meeting you, talking with you and reading your file is I am going to give you another 20 years. With the right combination of drugs and if you take care of yourself it is VERY do-able and we will do it.

I was speechless, I felt like I had been handed the ruby slippers lock, stock and barrel and I was standing in them--that their magic was giving me that 20 years. NO one has ever said anything like that to me before, and no ONE has ever given me that kind of sheer HOPE before.

I go in 4 weeks to go over my blood tests he had done and I am sure what program or drugs are we adding, but for the first time I feel well-----ALIVE!

Well unto Judy--over the next few days I am going to be posting my newest additions in my collection. It seems like I hit a big finding streak and this wonderful friend (Lisa in NJ) sent me a whole slew of stuff.

The two I want to talk about today is sheet music, for me its like having the orchestrations Judy sang in my home and it is one of those collectible items that in all reality are very inexpensive. Normally bewteen $2 and 10 for Judy non-Oz stuff. SO the first one is the original sheet music--released around the time of the movie is called "Wait and See" and is from Judy's film "The Harvery Girls" where Judy plays one of the Harvery Restraunt Girls out West. This was part of the stuff I got from my friend in New Jersey--BIG THANKS LISA.

The second piece is from the movie "For Me and My Gal" which I have the DVD and the sheet music is of course the main song from the movie. This particular photogrpah for some reason is one of my favorites of Judy and I found this in an Antique Market while my brother was out last week, which there are things he bought I have to share as well. As always I ask that you keep me in your thoughts as I go back to the Cleveland Clinic to get my results but for the time being.....

Two new books

Well the last few days here have been absolutely some of the best we have had in a very long time--in the 80's to mid 80's for days and I for one have been outside as much as possible. My brother has been here since Friday so posts have sort of come to a stand still.

Between the yard work, the bar-b-queing and some doll work we have been very busy. Then you through in the shopping and well a guy has to sleep some time .

There have been new Oz items added in the last few days courtesy of my little brother which I have to photograph but today I want to cover two new books I just finished reading last night.

Comic book style would better describe what they are and I got at my local comic book.nostalgic toy shop here in town. He has been rather good to me watching for Oz stuff.

The first is "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz" written by L. Frank Baum but adapted by David Chavel and Enrique Fernandez. Of course many of you know the original story was written in April 1900 this version is basically the book version Baum wrote way before the MGM 1939 Classic so many of us love. This one has a publish date of 2006 and is fully illustrated and in full color and is 103 pages in length broken down into three chapters. This one I think would be a delightful gift for a child of say 9-10 to read on their own or even younger read as bed time stories. What a great introduction to the book.

The second one is also Comic book in style by the ever creative and incredibly talented Eric Shanower by DarkHouse Comics. The title is "The Blue Witch of Oz" and was published in 1992. Eric wrote and fully illustrated this gorgeous book in the style that John R. Neill used in most of Baum's books. This story is basically the Story of the Good Witch of the East, and no I don't want to give away more than that .

I ask that you keep me in your thoughts and prayers on Tuesday as that is the day I go into Cleveland Clinic for my one time second opinion Dr. Gopal (My HIV Specialist) wants me to have I am a little nervous about it but hopefully things will be a little more clear after that visit.

230 posts as of today

It is so hard to believe that on April 16th this blog celebrated its second year running and that this is the two hundred-thirtieth post with 2,820 hits more or less. Its been an amazing journey and one I hope will continue for a very long time more like 5,000 posts and 150,000 hits . guess I have to bump up my game on what the heck I talk about.

You know every know and then someone comes along and makes you feel absolutely wonderful and I have so many great friends that do just that--those that read this blog, those that post here, those on Facebook with me which I am, those who e-mail me, call me and send cards. It has been great knowing how much I am cared for, it makes the rough times easier if you will, knowing I am not alone in all of this ca-ca.

A great friend tat I have known for about 8 years now in Chicago was so sweet and sent me one of my newest pieces I want to talk about to day.

The above photograph is the front of this WONDERFUL program and i will show pictures of the inside not sure if you will be able to read it all but it is a Radio City Music Hall Program handed out the week beginning Thursday January 6, 1949 for the showing of "Words and Music" starring Judy Garland, June Allyson, Perry Como, Lena Horne, Gene Kelly, Mickey Rooney Ann Sothern and MANY more.

What makes this piece even nicer in my opinion is that it also lists all of the vaudeville acts before the movie--gosh I wish they still did that and popcorn too and all for under $2.00, those were the days I guess.

Many of you know I collect Oz but it is also Judy Garland as well, and in my frank opinion the greatest talent that has ever lived! It in many ways has become an all consuming obsession, it has and does take over a lot of my life and will more than likely till the day I die.

This movie I have not seen yet it is on my list of must see which I swear grows longer each day . One of these days it just going to be nothing but movies all day. I'll let you all know when I do that. :)

Not sure if I mentioned I go this coming Tuesday to see Dr. Taege at Cleveland Clinic for my one time Second opinion my HIV Doctor wants me to get, I ask that you pray as I have to be there at 9 a.m. and will be in the height of rush hour traffic. Hopefully he will be able to figure something out.

Until then I guess I just carry on--bad days or bad nights and all. No use boo-hooing about it, it gets old and nobody likes a "Down Dorothy". Well until tomorrow gang and will post the other wonderful trinket this friend sent me.... and of course a Youtube post

Something a little Wicked

You know it has been hard the last few days getting over this cold, thankfully the laryngitis is gone and so is the nose blowing. But OY VEY this rash is just the limit let me tell you kids. According to my doctor its viral and will more than likely be 6 to 12 weeks before its gone, lucking flipping me huh! Oh well when your given lemons make lemon martini's , skip the lemonade and go for the hard stuff I always say.

I am on two new medications for it and my spirits well that a whole other story that we are just going to let lie like they say. Positive thinking and a perky attitude wins the battle right?

Speaking of positive and perky my sweetheart of a brother bought me last weekend and I just finished reading " A Little Bit Wicked" by Kristin Chenoweth---which of course was the first Briadway Galinda/Glinda in "Wicked". What a hoot, funny, sassy and like sitting with an old girlfriends and catching up on all the dirt, gossip and what is happening. My favorite stry involves this gentleman she calls "Der Upderkeister" and that is all I am going to say about that make you buy or borrow the book.

I also wanted to thank everybody for their prayers, notes of concern and love, and your "get well" tokens that were sent my way. It meant so much knowing how much I am loved.

Difficult News

Well I am not sure if I mentioned earlier this week about my doctor's appointment that I had with my HIV Specialist on Wednesday. As many of you know I drive into Cleveland to see my Doctor which I do not mind and many of you know how ill I have been again here lately. It seems at this time that it has gone from bad to worse.

When I saw my Doctor and got tests results 3 months ago my .....

T-cell count was 157 and my viral load was 1,200 which wasn't great but it wasn't terrible either

Yesterday my T-cell count was 86 (which is almost half of what it was) and my Viral Load is now 450,000. (Triple of what it was).

Keep in mind that Viral load should be as close to zero as possible as that is the amount of active virus in my body--almost if you will as 450,000 soldiers waging war against me. While my T-cells should be high (normal is 8,000) which means I have fighting for me 86 men.

My doctor wants me to see another HIV/AIDS Specialist for a one time second opinion visit at the Cleveland Clinic because according to the blood tests I should be responding to medication I am already on.

This isViral Loas wise the very worst I have EVER been. My T-cells have been lower but right now according to my doctor it is VERY bad and any little anything could be very serious indeed even life threatening. Pneumonia at this point could and more than likely literally kill me.

I was not expecting quiet this news, I knew I felt bad I knew how tired I was all the time and quiet honestly I thought it was because of the fibromyalgia and nothing more. Boy was I wrong! Needless to say I am scared right out of my mind right now and not sure were all this is going to lead but I need to do something and very quick.

As always I ask you keep me in your thoughts.

Wishing a very Happy Holy Season

Even though I have this g-d awful cold I wanted to take the time and wish all of my readers a very Happy Holy Season. Passover begins tonight at duck and Easter is Sunday. So with that said maybe somebody somewhere could makea Passover Musical for the pictures until then let's enjoy some Judy!

The Last of the Manga Series

I did a post a few months back about the Antarctic Press and the "Land Of Oz Manga: Return to the Emerald City" well I wanted to show the last three comic books in the series--or what I tend to believe is the last in the series.

The story line of course follows the Oz book and the adventures a boy named Tip has who in reality ends up being Ozma under a witches spell. The books are by David Hutchison. Edited by Doug Dlin and Rod Espinosa. I lucked out getting these as our in town comic book/vintage toy store carries them. Dan and the staff have been really good to me holding each issue till I can get down and buy them.

What I really love is the beautiful covers and the black and white drawings in each issue. It wasn't until I went down to see if they had the new Eric Shanower Oz Comic books that I discovered these. What works even better is the way they are written and what a wonderful way introducing a child to the joys and fun of Oz.You won't have a problem holding their attention with this set of comic books.

The Jack the Pumpkin head cover is number 2 in the series and was released December 2008.

The Jinjur cover is number 3 in the series and was issued January 2009.

While the last one with Tip and the Giffin on the cover is number 4 and presumably the last and was issued February 2009.

If you would like to get these for yourself contact

The Toys Time Forgot
137 East Cherry Street
Canal Fulton, Ohio 44614
(330) 854-1700

and ask for Dan Hare--tell them Charlie Dale referred you

The babysitting I have been doing is going rather well, although I think I may have caught one of the boys cold as I have a slight cough and my voice has dropped considerably today. I sound like some John Wayne Cowboy movie reject and kids that isn't fun. Oh well at least for the time being I have a "butch" voice.

Anyway hope you all enjoy my return to blogging and everything Oz, I decided to really try to give it my all and focus in on some of the collectibles I get and have. There is as far as I know only one other blog doing just that http://theozenthusiast.blogspot.com/ and another that covers new items coming out http://curiozitycorner.blogspot.com/

Something a little "Wicked"

You know every now and then something happens that just makes you fee loved beyond words. Gestures sometimes speaks volumes more than anything else.

Yesterday was one of those days. In an attempt at getting better at running this blog, I want to try to share at least some thoughts on a daily basis. I have to commit myself to doing it.

Anyway as many of you know I have some really good days and some really bad ones and well the last few days have been the really bad days. I shared in my "Everything Oz" Yahoo group that I call it the "Fibro Crude days" This feeling like the Wicked Witch of the West set you on fire, took you on her broom a mile into the air then shoved you off. After which the Winkie guards of the witch did a Mexican hat dance on your remains before a house fell on you!

I thought it summed how I feel on my bad days. But what I wanted to talk about was unfettered kindness. the kind that comes from no where and makes you speechless. Our Everything Oz group has this Secret Pal program you can sign up for and you get a name to buy or make Ozzy tings for all year long or you can buy and make both.

Anyway a few days ago I was just stunned when I got a package in my mailbox marked from E-bay. I knew I hadn't bought anything the money hasn't been there. It was a 5 x & color photograph of Kristin Chenowith dressed as Glinda from "Wicked" and signed! As you can tell the photo is just gorgeous. It was also my first real "Wicked" collectible other than some of the merchandise Barnes and Noble had last year.

In the meantime another friend of mine who knows who my Secret Pal is was asking me all sorts of questions about what I likes Oz wise, what I had and just a ton of questions so she could feed the info to my Secret Pal of course. Well I mentioned loving the Kristin piece so much that now I had to try to find an Idina Menzel piece to go with it .

Well yesterday which was a g-d awful day fibro wise that I was really depressed. I walked to the mailbox and Bingo another E-bay envelope. This time a 5 X 7 of Idina and Kristin together as Elphaba and Glinda and get this signed by BOTH of them!!

Well I had to sit down I was struck speechless and just cried and cried and cried I was so moved. Words do not begin to even describe how I felt. But I wanted to talk about it here because that simple act of kindness and friendship meant so very much.

It has been on rare occasions that someone does something like that and for me the last 2 months it has happened a few times--- So for this person Thank you for doing it so sweetly!

should have seen it coming

I was doing some research a few days ago on Fibromyalgia and found some tings rather interesting at the very least--warning signs if you will for the disease that I missed for years....

1). Most people who suffer from Fibromyalgia also have Restless Syndrome, Chronic Pain and or Nueropathy.

2). Most people suffering from Fibromyalgia also have an auto-immune disorder of some sorts.

3). Most people who suffer with Fibromyalgia also have been diagnosed with Depression.

4). Some but not all people suffering with Fibromyalgis also tend to have discomfort with bright lights, loud noises and some touching.

5). Most people with Fibromyalgia also suffer from lack of "revitalizing sleep". Sleep that leaves you feeling fresh and rested is what I mean here.

6. Most people go undiagnosed with Fibromyalgia for a period of time, before they end up being diagnosed with it.

I wanted to post this so others would no what some of the signs are and what to watch for. If I had only known sooner. Some days are much better than others but most days are very difficult on many different levels. I think so far it has been worse than trying to live with AIDS because those "fibro" feelings and symptoms for the most part are constant.

Spring Yard Work

Well this afternoon after church and lunch Jim and I decided to do some Spring yard work. Rake leaves and debris, clean the flower beds and what not, we may not have a lot of property but it seems like so much yard work. The weather was perfect for it 55 degrees and a nice slow breeze it all seemed to be perfect for what we were doing.

The neighbors across the street are redoing part of their yard with treated railroad ties and discarding their old bricks, which they GAVE use no strings attached. So all the flower beds will now have bricks lining them to help keep the grass and weeds out and easier to try to keep up with. So far today I bet I have moved close to 60 bricks.

The flower bed by the garage got them first to finish off what my brother and I did last year. The the small strawberry patch we have got some and I am adding this year a separated Herb Garden. I am thinking Chives, Cilantro, Lavender, Lemon Grass, Parsley, Oregano and anything else I can get my hands on.

So the small garden is being extended into the one that borders the side of our property as well and I am hoping we have enough bricks to do that one as well. I still have last years Tiki Torches which I would love to get more this year and I need to get the fuel for them but other than that we have talked a small vegetable garden as well. Tomatoes , peppers, cucumbers mainly.

My hands yearned to feel life itself today

The ground holds so many silent sacred secrets

Millions of years,

Endless lives have walked upon it

The journey they lead,

The stories the earth could yield.

I could hear those voices today

As my hands entered the sacred dirt,

Their voices being freed

The silence broken

All I had to do was listen

To the earth in my hands.

Voices of anger and rage

Voices of sadness and grief

Voices of hope and peace

The cold damp earth slid through my fingers

Became one with my skin

My soul united with them.

Thank you Mother Earth for thy gift to me.

When it rains it pours

Just a short note to ask the readers of this blog to keep me in their prayers. I was rushed this afternoon to the hospital by ambulance and it turend out I have another kidney stone. The 20th stone in 18 years actually. Medication related but according to the doctor it is very small and very passable. I am on 5 new medications for it and I just ask that you all pray I pass it easily and soon.

I wanted to share a purchase I made some time agon on E-bay of an original Lobby Card for "A Child Is Waiting". This card however is Mexican and I thought it was so neat that I had to have it. What was nice was the price which was very affordable as most of the original lobby cards are way out of my price range.

I am going to try to get back posting about my ever growing collection. Right now it isn't growing as much with Jim on sick leave and my not seeling anything at the moment on E-bay. But there is other stuff I can show and talk about.

I have decided for the time being to keep the sight up because it is unique and I hope their is interest.

A Day for the Irish

Some days your reminded of wonderful

memories of the past

that linger like a good friend

on a long welcomed visit.

Today, I woke remembering

my Paternal Grandmother singing

"Danny Boy" to me before

I feel asleep for naps

in her rosewater scented bed.

Grandma its been 21 years since you left us

Many more years before that

that you stopped singing to me

but that spcae and time is

just as real as if it where yesterday.

thinking of calling it quits

I have been rather bad about posting here lately and part of it is due to that I have not taken photographs of my newest Oz things. Part of it is I wonder do people even care if that read about that kind of thing. Part of it is feeling so bad with the fibromyalgia and I don't want to use this space to complain in. Part of it is I wonder are people even reading.

I wonder if I should change focus again and the blog name to something more meaningful and worthwhile that or just dlete it and forget it. I will still run the blog Fairie Dust Studios for my art work. Any thoughts?